I have contemplated what to say and how to go about saying what my life looks like right now for a while right now. I am elated with entering 2019 but I also never thought that I would be writing this post today. I can’t tell you how many messages I receive on how to deal with a broken heart after a breakup. Well friends, this is the moment where the girl with all of the words had to soak in her own advice. This is a breakup for NYE.

As much as a breakup sucks, I first want to acknowledge the truth that you will love again. As I have been going through my first breakup I am showing myself grace because it is just proof to show you that you did love. You allowed yourself to jump, to love and to trust someone else. That has changed my life dramatically. If you are right there with me, I want you to know that first off before you keep on reading. A relationship is so precious, so beautiful and so good. Sister, when you allow yourself to feel in that way, new parts of your heart open up and old parts of your fears go away.

So I know you’re here because most of you like to know the ins and outs of a breakup or what really happened. Well, there will be no gossip here because I am not about that. When things ended between us, we decided long ago that we would make our careers work. So, if you are here and wondering if Stormfolk will be a thing, you no longer have to worry. If you are here wondering what happened, well details will be between us and our friends and family as I value that. As for what happened, the bottom line is, sometimes you want and work for someone who want to work out with so badly but in the long run God is screaming on the sidelines, “Job well done, but this is not my best for you.” Let’s be honest, when we see ourselves in a relationship we see our future and what we want. We also may miss somethings that are actually happening and causing us to stumble, or it may cause us to hear unclear messages from God. All I know is this, when you experience love you realize that in the end it is all worth it. Yes, don’t get me wrong, it is hard as hell but that pain you are feeling won’t be a constant feeling for the rest of your life. Your heart will mend, your heart will heal and you will love again. Heartache is real. Heartache is hell. Heartache is painful. This has been painful.

I rang in 2018 in a whole different way. As I sit here thinking back on this last year in a relationship, I can’t help but break for those who are unhappy in theirs or scared to get out. Please, if you are one of those, please recognize that you do not need a significant other to make you whole. It is easier to stay with someone because you won’t feel heartbreak right away but in the long run it is toxic and pushing you away from who are meant to meet. Looking back, I have loved every lesson learned while going through a breakup and seeing myself grow in ways that I have never thought were possible. It is like you see yourself in a different light and my friends, that is beautiful.

I wish nothing but the best for him and don’t have a bitter speck anywhere to be found in my heart. There is no room for that here.

We are all about to start a NEW YEAR and you have the power to change a lot of things. It may be time for you to be honest with yourself in a lot of areas in your life, it may be to ask for forgiveness or to forgive someone. It may be to allow yourself to love again. It is not a time to doubt your beauty, your worth or your value. This is your year, go sister, go.

Here’s to flipping the next page and ending this painful but beautiful chapter in my life. To all of the late night cries, the late night lyrics and late night chats with Jesus, this next step is being taken. Here’s to the hard times that are molding my heart and future self into someone better than I have planned for. This is to my heart that feels heavy for the loss but to my soul that knows deeply, already that I will rise again. Here’s to recognizing every single ounce of pain from here on out that it is never a useless piece of pain. Here’s to telling myself always to keep going because deeply knowing that an end of a chapter is never really the end, there is another page to turn. I hope you can recite this too, knowing fully that you can too move on, slowly with time, healing and with lots and lots of Jesus.

From one heart that’s being put back together to another, you my friend are deeply loved and known.

Thank you for letting me share this side of my heart with you.

Happy turning of this page, see you in 2019 with more lessons learned and stories to tell,

xoxo, Kale